Adam Albright said:
You already squeal more than a band of rabid monkeys to make up for
the noise of ten regular trolls. I bet your momma is proud of the
annoying self-important shit you turned out to be. Getting an idea of
what a putz I think you are? No? Then pay better attention!
Adam
Three words for you: Borderline Personality Disorder.
Your tendency will be to immediately deny (which, in and of itself is not
significant, but for those who suffer from BPD, it is a classic symptom).
You also exhibit (which also accompanies BPD) an issue of very low self
esteem. The need to be superior, your combative and seemingly arrogant
behavior, extreme defensiveness. In this case, your need to be perceived as
of superior intellect, i.e., "I easily tie all the guys that want to "fight"
into knots without even really trying. Just a hobby", "It's just too easy",
"I keep hoping some day somebody will come along that's a challenge, force
me to think", "nothing close yet, just a long line of fakers"...these are
all declarations that reveal much about your intellectual and emotional
state and are sub consciously intended to bolster your low self esteem.
However, this type of behavior tends to produce the opposite of the desired
results. And the Borderline just grows angrier.
The reality is that your postings show you to be just slightly above average
intelligence, which, of course, is unacceptable to you. Also
evident is that your emotional development has been arrested at an early
age. This becomes clear when one examines your postings for immature
statements, behaviors and an inability to 'let something go'. You simply
must have the last word. You are able to discern the immature or
inappropriate behaviour of others, and act swiftly and without mercy, but
turn a blind eye to your own.
More importantly, you feel that those around you are the cause of your bad
behaviour, and are unwilling to change said behaviour until those around you
change theirs. This, of course, is a self-delusional fallacy, for as long
as you deny your own issues, or blame your behaviour on others (a classic
statement might be: "YOU made me like this", "YOU did this", etc.), your
behaviour will grow worse and worse and your reactionaryism will continue
unabated. It cannot do otherwise because, after all, if it's not your
fault...how can you possibly change it? "It is completely outside of my
control", says the Borderline. And this, perhaps, is the most detrimental
attribute of the Borderline. Sort of a self-perpetuating system of denial
that keeps the BP from recognizing the condition that makes him/her
miserable. There are many other behaviours that accompany BPD, but I shan't
bother to post them all here. Although you probably won't, you should really
look into the symptoms and treatment of this disorder. Treatment and
recovery
are a long process, but well worth the effort. The reward is that your life
will improve dramtically, and on the other side of it, you will consider the
hard work involved to be much more than worthwhile.
I have no doubt that you have been here for quite sometime. It is, after
all, the perfect outlet and perpetuation for the BP.
